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Eternal Suffering
02:46
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2. |
Mariana Trench
04:23
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This ocean of sorrow has dryed out (go down, go down, go down)
There is no substance anymore (stay down, stay down, stay down)
Everything is futile
Everything is dead (now)
Down this path to a dire existence
Wasting time for this dream that can not be
Down this path to a dire existence
I’m in a cemetery with a shovel in my hand
(go down, go down, go down) There will be no cure
(stay down, stay down, stay down) This flattened line is not volatile
Down this path to a dire existence
Wasting time for this dream that can not be
Down this path to a dire existence
I’m in a cemetery with a shovel in my hand
Down this path to a dire existence
Wasting time for this dream that can not be
Down this path to a dire existence
I’m in a cemetery with a shovel in my hand
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3. |
At Least I Die
04:06
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I am so sick of this state of mine
So i embrace it face it this time
Don’t you dare to judge me
At least its something i can grip
when i can't hold on to anything else
At least its something i can feel
when no other feeling sees the light of day
This fragile shell surounding me
like a blanket in a hole of dirt
What nothing else is giving me
let‘s me float above it all
I push you away from me
You will not enter my space
Now it‘s time to face my fears
Take this chance to reappear
Cause soon enough i will fall back
and run away to my shelter
At least its something i can grip
when i can't hold on to anything else
At least its something i can feel
when no other feeling sees the light of day
I push you away from me
You will not enter my space
Now it‘s time to face my fears
Take this chance to reappear
Cause soon enough i will fall back
and run away to my shelter
At least its something i can grip
when i can't hold on to anything else
At least its something i can feel
when i almost feel dead inside
At least it‘s something no one else
will ever have the will to understand
At least i die
At least i die on my own terms.
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Leave, leave me alone
Just, leave me alone
I look right through you at the wall
I want to be at peace
I implode inward in this spirit
that is now taking over
Space and time collide in unison (by a nanosecond)
warps into everything, collapsing into nothingness
Leave, leave me alone
Just, leave me alone
I‘m forced to look through this stereoscope
at those abstract images
They disturb me
With this pantoscopic tilt
They lead me
I am befalling into this meditation
Leave, leave me alone
Just, leave me alone
I hide in plain sight
I go where you can‘t find me
Space and time collide in unison (by a nanosecond)
warps into everything collapsing into nothingness
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5. |
Deliberate Self Harm
05:20
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I sit here at the table
Those distractions standing right in front of me
They kind of comfort me, but still there is a hole
Nobody‘s watching
Nobody even cares
This room is full of emptiness
The air is thin and cold
This feeling is arising
This feeling i can‘t control
It leeds me to this solution
I gotta let it out
No
I don‘t want to be alone
I feel sick
The only way out of here is to cut myself
So im reaching for the blade
Let it slit
I‘m searching for something that loves and controls me
Nothing in here can make me happy
The outside world is laughing at me
Theres only this sound and this voice
And it leads me to where the river will run
Oh and it will run
Just give me something that makes me feel like i‘m alive
No
I dont want to be alone
I feel sick
The only way out of here is to cut myself
So im reaching for the blade
Let it slit
I‘m searching for something that loves and controls me
And then when i wake up
Nothing has changed
I regret the things i‘ve done
This feeling i miss so dearly
is gone again
And then when the sun goes down it begins again
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6. |
Methylphenidate
05:20
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Where did i go wrong?
I don’t know where
There are knives in my sight
I pull them out
I’m so desperate
Waiting for a signal to shine
It’s so far away (so i can’t reach it)
So deep hidden (so i can’t find it)
It moves away from me
I just can't get a grip
It’s so far away (so i can’t reach it)
it’s so deep hidden (so i can’t find it)
It moves away from me
It seems almost gone
Where do you draw it from?
Where is the well?
Where do I have do go to find it?
What do I have to do to earn it?
There’s a place i want to be
but my face is turning black
It’s so far away (so i can’t reach it)
So deep hidden (so i can’t find it)
It never stays with me
It only fades to dust
It’s so far away (so i can’t reach it)
So deep hidden (so i can’t find it)
No matter how i try
It lies beyond myself
It’s so far away (so i can’t reach it)
So deep hidden (so i can’t find it)
It moves away from me
It seems almost gone
Where do you draw it from?
Where is the well?
Where do I have do go to find it?
What do I have to do to earn it?
There’s a place i want to be
but my face is turning black
It slipped again
Where do you draw it from?
Where is the well?
Where do I have do go to find it?
What do I have to do to earn it?
There’s a place i want to be
but my face is turning black
I am someone else
than the one you see in my face
Where did i go wrong
I don’t even want to know
Carry on this life without a single breath
Carry on this life until, until my death
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7. |
Parasite
05:33
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Closed off and ignored
No movement is allowed
Isolated and kept still
Only fed with poison
Locked into this room with no light and no air
These voices are all that is left
In this prison which was created
for this vulnerable entity
Ockham's razor will pave the way to freedom
by cutting the flesh open
in this involuntary caesarean delivery
Elopement (into the night)
Searching (for a home)
Wandering (deaf and blind)
Emptiness (deep inside)
Closed off and ignored
No movement is allowed
Isolated and kept still
Only fed with poison
A child in the womb
is nourished by it‘s host
eating what is served to survive (to survive)
Unloved and abandoned
Delivered and returned
Desire and regret
The blessing became this curse
Closed off and ignored
No movement is allowed
Isolated and kept still
Only fed with poison
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Kill yourself now
With an expectation of nothing i'm stuck in the consequence
In the desert lies a truth, the truth of my demise
When i go to see the light my eyes burn into my brain
Leaving ashes of blindness behind
When the forrest shows it's leaves i leave my guilt behind
But this exercise can not be executed
This door can not be unlocked
The channel of self-acceptance is fully closed and until i awake forever shut down
Now i see the waste of flesh in me
Rape me so i feel life run through me
Nothing stops the pain
Hide away the shame
Encircled by their name
Loveshed is the grain
Everytime that i die, just hold me
and don't bury me when i die in this failure
Now i see the waste of flesh in me
Don't you, don't you look at me!
Nothing stops the pain
Hide away the shame
Encircled by their name
Loveshed is the grain
Everytime that i die, just hold me
and don‘t bury me when i die in this shelter of mine
It is time
Everytime that i cry, just hold me
Just don't bury me when i die in this body of mine
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9. |
Fairy Being
03:42
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I lost my place
I lost my faith
Rain and wind are coming close
Is this what i chose
I need, i need something
I need someone to forget myself
I fucking hate you
I fucking love you
You do not show me my way
I fucking hate this
Please don’t you dare to throw me away
You’re my saviour
You have to be
Fuck, i am so obsessed with you
You’re my saviour
I hope you are
Will you be my fairy being
I need a break
I need to escape
I’m running towards the end of the world
One with you, you are one
You’re my saviour
You have to be
Fuck, i am so obsessed with you
You’re my saviour
I hope you are
Will you be my fairy being
One with you, you are one
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Nothing, nothing has changed
Nothing, never will ‘till i fucking awake
This state of aggregation transitioned it‘s phase
I‘m dying of thirst
There is no more water left
It all boiled into tedium
but it ain‘t fueling this machine
Only wears it down
Never wears a crown
Nothing, nothing has changed
Nothing, never will
Till i fucking awake out of this nightmare that is self created
but more so by all of you people, who don‘t care for the weak
Treat me like a ghost
Project your failures
with no understanding
I hate myself for hating myself
So i abandon this malfunction
I leave this fucker alone
To relieve myself from myself
Destroy this image in the mirror to see what i will become
I want to forget
I need to forget
I will, i will change now
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11. |
Fendouzhe
08:15
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I: Bathyscaphe (The Preperation)
Realign my fractured sight
Behind this fog is where i walk
Redefine forgotten lines
The architect of my soul am i
I climb this fucking mountain in front of me
Rearrange abortive thoughts
These chemicals are put in order
Reenforce this crashing plane
At the bottom is where i start again
II: Fendouzhe (The Final Battle)
I enter this battlefield ahead
Deep under water is where i slay the beast
I won't back down, i won't let you win
Deep in my soul is where i draw strength and power
I will fight the enemy inside
There is no more run and hide, run and hide
No more dull excuses
You will be dead and gone forever now
I will fight the enemy inside
There is no more run and hide, run and hide
Slowly changing, slowly changing
I rip off your flesh
and strip you to your bones
I puke out your guts
and leave you bare and alone
Running circles got me nowhere
Chasing demons
Seeking changes is the answer
Finding freedom
Now i am finally free of this vicious spell
Now i leave my past behind
Stranded at this beautiful shore
Now i'm ready to change
Take responsability
Now i'm willing to change
Time to change is now
Time to change is now
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12. |
Eternal Salvation
05:55
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